I could try to blame the high temps and humidity. Or maybe my children – but that might mess them up even more than I already have.Surely I can peg my joblessness on the economy. Maybe. Even though the economy led to the elimination of my position, I still feel responsible for the fact that I’ve not yet landed a job. All I can think is that I must be doing something wrong.
I’ve been incredibly patient, putting my faith in God and eagerly seeking his direction. My fear is that He is pointing the way and I’m missing my cue. Am I being stubborn in choosing not to pursue certain opportunities? Am I too greedy? Am I forcing my will and forgetting I’m not the one in control?
Blah! I guess it’s one of those days. I just don’t feel motivated. Shouldn’t the prospect of securing a regular paycheck be motivation enough? I’m not happy with my situation, so maybe I need to try harder to remedy it.
I tell prospective employers I thrive on variety. I enjoy doing a lot of things – concurrently. I work well under pressure and enjoy having my hands on many projects. This boring, repetitive and disappointing job search is getting really old.
I’m so experienced in job-hunting that I can predict the outcomes of some of my tactics. For instance, if I post new resumes to the Web sites Monster or CareerBuilder and make them “public,” I can expect a throng of emails from insurance companies, especially ones seeking individuals interested in opening and managing new offices. I know I’m one of many job-seekers who receive the same email messages.
I could also identify employers with very tight-lipped human resources staff who are protective of their company information. They are the ones who won’t divulge the name of the hiring manager and, in a round-about way, say, “Don’t call us – we’ll call you.”
A couple of months ago, a fellow church member, Linda, told me she was in awe of my faithfulness and patience throughout this trial. She wanted to know how I stayed so strong. I was shocked to hear her words; I imagined her to be ten times stronger than I. At the time, Linda was off work for an unpaid medical leave and living off some of her savings. I suppose I was in a better position to weather the storm, since I had a husband providing financial support. Now I feel obligated to live up to Linda’s perception of me.
My 19-year-old daughter is job-hunting right now too. And I’m constantly nagging her because I think she needs somebody kicking her in the butt to keep her motivated. Maybe she would react better to positive verbal support, such as what Linda expressed to me. On the other hand, maybe I still need an occasional kick in the pants.
*Cynthia Baxter's blog "The Unemployment Line" is her opinion; not specifically supported by Weiss Communications, Inc.

